Who should I tell?

This is a huge part of life right now. I feel like all I did was discuss my fertility issues with anyone who would listen over the last two years. I know everyone is sick of hearing it. We told our family members and very close friends in our other treatments. Then there is the chore of telling everyone the bad news. Most people don’t know what to say and mostly anything offended me anyway. If you’ve gone through this you understand how wacky your hormones are after rounds of injections!

I’ve only told three people including my boss about this round using a donor egg. I am scared to be the bad news girl again. I also just don’t want to make this summer about “me”! Everyone else has their stuff and I want to be a part of those things. I’m not really sure if I will tell anyone else before the procedure.  I am very scared of judgement from others. Why are we spending the money to do this when there are children who need to be adopted. I don’t really have an answer for that other than I have a husband and he wants a baby more than anything in the world and I want to do whatever I can to make that dream come true for both of us. This has been an amazing time to find my own identity in Christ and make this season about me, Him, my marriage, and our future. I love this quote on the left.  I can’t look around me right? I have to lean on what I know of my relationship with Him and that He will close doors that need to be closed. I keep going and trust Him as I go.

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Adding to this a few months later. When we were closer to starting medicine I told my parents, their significant others,  and my siblings. Everyone has been so supportive and amazing! Having their support in this means so much…it breaks my heart still knowing this baby will not be “genetically” us but they’ve been so supportive and it has hardly been a thought or question since I first mentioned it! My insecurities need to get out of the way because no one else cares!