Transfer Day (Day 5)

Our Transfer Day could not have gone more perfect! We got a room close to our specialist so my husband could work in the morning, and I had a chance to take a nice walk, have breakfast, and relax before the big event!

When we first arrived we went into a conference room where our doctor gave us a picture and told us the details about our chosen embryo! She (I’m saying she, not because I don’t want a boy, just because I hate calling it “it” and I have more girl baby clothes is all) is a grade 5AA. After 2 IUIs and 1 IVF with this doctor he said, “it’s so great to give you good news for once!” Of course, that hurts my feelings a little since the good news is finally because it isn’t dealing with me at all. I know that is silly but you can’t help but feel that way in this process. Closing down my insecurities and moving on…

I did not do a great job on filling up my bladder before I went so I had to drink 48oz of water in the doctor’s office before we could start. They were fine with it though and I wasn’t uncomfortable for very long. I wore a casual, cotton, maxi dress, a denim jacket, and sandals. They gave me a robe to put on over my dress so the only things I had to remove were my underwear and jacket. I typically always bring a pair of socks to put on because I get cold feet and it just grosses me out to think of my bare feet up in the doctor’s face even though my ‘everything else’ is up in his face! Weird, I know.

We got to watch everything on the ultrasound. Watching the little embryo placed in my uterus was so sweet. He gave us a picture right after he placed it. It is a teeny tiny white dot but gives me a visual when I pray and hope! The procedure itself was nothing. I hardly felt anything. I think because I had one traumatic IUI I was very anxious about this. We were finished in about 15 minutes, I got dressed, went over meds with the nurse, and we were on the road back home!

I spent the rest of the afternoon on the couch watching Netflix and staring at a picture of an embryo! We have three left that are frozen, so we started with 13, then 8 by Day One, still 8 on Day Three, and 4 on Day 5.

I read this today and I love it!

“Once the genetic material from the sperm and the egg has fused, the work of the sperm and the egg are done. The set of combined genetic instructions duplicates itself and two new cells are created. Soon there will be a ball of new cells – the beginning of a new human being. It is that ball of cells, not someone else’s egg, that hopefully implants into the recipient’s uterine wall and begins to grow into a fetus.”

At this point I don’t want to think about the donor any longer. I appreciate her and I have prayed many nights for her and her health and her life but now it is me, this embryo, God, and my husband. I can’t focus on more than that and stay positive. I told my sister-in-law today that I am just going to live like I am pregnant. Worst case scenario I am not and I’ve been good to my body and positive for a few weeks. And now we wait…..