"Let all bitterness, and wrath, and anger, and clamour, and evil speaking, be put away from you, with all malice: And be ye kind one to another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, even as God for Christ’s sake hath forgiven you.” Ephesians 4:31-32

I am determined to not be bitter and sad if this is negative. Only God can knit a baby together in my womb {Psalm 139:13} I trust You God whatever the result may be.

We take our pregnancy test tomorrow. I have not cheated with a home test because those are so unreliable with all of these hormones I am taking that I didn’t want to risk any imprecision to mess with my heart. I have cried off and on all day but I am determined to not let this break me like my last IVF. We have decided if it is negative to allow ourselves to be sad for a moment but enjoy the freedom of knowing. 

I am preparing for the call tomorrow afternoon with the news. I am going to lay out workout clothes to go for a run if negative and pajamas to rest if positive. Either way I know I’ve done everything I can do and if its meant to be it will be.  I’ve been a Christian my entire life and I have to truly trust the Lord on this. 

If I haven’t mentioned it enough Progesterone makes you crazy. A friend asked me yesterday if I need anything and I told her the only thing I need is for everyone to not be sensitive around me because I am a c.r.a.z.y. person. I think it will be easier to handle if I know that I am pregnant and if I am not then I stop taking the injections. So there we go. A week ago I was so optimistic but now I am really feeling 50/50. I have no idea. I haven’t been nauseous today but I was every other day this week. I can’t believe I will know by this time tomorrow if this worked or not!?